Wow, I had no idea that it had been so long since I posted. This is beginning to be like my journals that never get finished/kept up with. I have been BUSY. Emily is getting better at school. She is still crying when I leave her, but a bit less each day. She is also getting better with the nap.
School is going well, I talked myself out of dropping my class yesterday and went ahead and finished my reading. Turns out I learned quite a bit. I just feel a bit overwhelmed sometimes and lose my head. I have one elective to take before I finish and I am thinking of taking Spanish, could be very useful as I read about English Language Learners in my textbook.
Today was a sad day at work. Mom's last day was today and I only cried once. Pretty good I thought since for a while there, every time I thought I had pulled myself together, I started boohooing again. I am just very sad that she will not be there at work every day. Over the last three years I have had the comfort of knowing that she would be there and handle things in her great way. And she was there every day of my pregnancy to listen to Emily with the doppler thingy whenever I got worried. She was there when the aweful nurses walked out and nearly killed our company. She was there for move one and move two. And I guess I got used to the idea that she would always be there.
I am not angry, just disappointed and sad. I know Mom has to do what is best for her, but I guess I just don't understand. I didn't understand when my BFF left our company either, but with time all things heal and this will too. Of course I wish Mom only good things at her new job and I hope she finds the happiness/contentment there that she did not have with us. AbleCare will go on, but it will not be the same.
Emily is off to story time with Daddy and I am going to write my essay.
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